Leap..or Forever Glance Wistfully

Today, a dear sweet friend of mine told me a really sad story, about a boy dying in a rugby game. It brought up an idea that has been stirring in my mind, the subject we all hate but cant get out of our minds. Regret. I remember my favorite teacher told me once in junior high that the saddest words in the english language are .." if only.." and I couldnt agree more. I think no one purposly goes and does something they know they will someday regret. But lately I've discovered that the line between what is right and what you might regret someday, is like trying to guess if it'll snow or not in Winnipeg during summer.

It seems to me that our instincts usually guide us to whats right and what we know we shouldnt be doing. Yet this is all based on the assumption that we use our brains and not our hearts. It appears that in many relationships, the mind tends to take the back seat and let the heart do all the thinking. So that only leaves our heart that acts like a puppy on its first walk. So eager to follow its desires and curiositys. But is it right to follow your heart in this day and age? Now days its hard to trust anyone, no matter how close you think they are to you. If a guy says he loves you...its hard to think awwwww..nowdays everyone's thinking....liar....or pffffffffft who else did you say that to...etc. How do we give this huge responsibility to our hearts..to make decisions we wont regret. If we take the plunge to fall in love, I suppose there will always be a ..what if..going on in our mind, but i suppose it all comes down to faith.

If you have pure intentions, I think its wise to take a plunge in whatever your doing, and have faith for the best, that it'll work out. In an age where children kill their parents, and people get killed in playing a ball game, I think faith is needed immensly . We can't let the heart take all the responsibility no matter how intense the emotions are. Balance is required to have a happy life. A compromise between the heart and brain, and always ask yourself before you enjoy yourself in whatever your yearning to do..will it be worth it, or will the guilt reduce you to a soulless being.

Maybe regrets are just a part of life, to give us the oppertunity to reflect on life and who we are and what we've done. Or maybe they are our guidance always showing us what path we're on and which one we ought to be on. Yet at the end of the day, its our choices that determine how many regrets we will have.

Letters to Some...Comfort to Others

I would normally say that most people I've known have shown an egotistic side that doesn't pull at anyone's heartstrings. Yet, it amazes me that when we are asked what our strong points are or what we're best at..its usually filled by a nice long confused silence. Today I realized how many of my friends truly have a gift at writing either beautiful poetry about heartache that makes you want to kick your ex while smiling, or speak of touching stories of their pain.

It seems that writing has healing powers that the medical world does not yet know of. Whether your dying of emotional pain, or scared of the unkown winding road, or feel that one more minute spent in reality might be the end of all that you know, words offer that comforting shoulder. Sometimes we are not lucky enough to be surrounded by loved ones in our time of greatest need, or we are too closed to speak of our fears.

But reading, lets us travel into another realm where those whom we have never met speak to us, and understand us. It can be a novel your reading, or a letter from a friend, or even a journal entry. That is why I've decided to try and write a blog, because maybe it will help someone put a smile on their face, or maybe it will help someone know that we are all in the same boat, trying to help each other head towards a sanctuary.