Today, a story was acted in front of a pair of innocent eyes. It was freightning and beautiful at the same time. It was a story of hope and peace. A story of confusion and fear. A story of life told in the heavens. It starts with a girl walking home while looking at the sky.....
As I looked at the sky, I saw the rainclouds glower down at me. They were so high up but somehow they were closing in on me. Almost like they were daring me to confess, that there was no escape. Everywhere I looked, my fear was etched into the clouds. Fear of being in a world where you build your own path not knowing where it will lead you. The dense clouds followed my pace, as if my fears were accompying me on my journey. Yet when I looked behind me, I saw a beautiful blue clear sky. As if all that fear and pain had never existed. It was if it had always been beautiful and clear..with birds delving into the soft white clouds leading to nothing but a happy ending.
It was comforting to look at the sky that beheld no scars, no regrets, no painful memories. Yet the darkness still loomed over me, reminding me that it was far from over, I still had a far walk. As I kept walking on thinking whether I was going to find an army of these black clouds hanging over my house..a glint of colour caught my eye. A rainbow. Halfway into the clear sky and half way into the clouds. A peace offering to all that we have lost and all has occured, and what is still yet to come. I didn't want to wrench my eyes from the dazzaling colours...fearing they would dissapear as soon as I turned my back on them. But as I walked on, the rainbow only became larger and more beautiful with more vibrant colours.
As I reached my house, I realized that our destiny was in the heavens. Our stories, our tears and the colours of our joy constantly with us, reminding us of who we were, and who we've become. After feeling afraid of a darkness that brought unknown dread, realization that maybe what's hidden behind our fears, is our happiness. If we all pushed ourselves to conquer our fear, so we may reach our passions, then it would be as if we blew those blackened clouds into an unseen mist.
We may not have the power to push away clouds, but we have the ability to create the willpower to go through them, to what awaits on the other side. There will be no regret or pain if we know we did all we could to bring about the sun in our own lives or in others. Why fear the unknown, when it may be what you want more than anything in this world....if theres a rainbow behind every raincloud...maybe there's happiness behind every closed door we're too scared to open.
Monday, June 1, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Leap..or Forever Glance Wistfully
Today, a dear sweet friend of mine told me a really sad story, about a boy dying in a rugby game. It brought up an idea that has been stirring in my mind, the subject we all hate but cant get out of our minds. Regret. I remember my favorite teacher told me once in junior high that the saddest words in the english language are .." if only.." and I couldnt agree more. I think no one purposly goes and does something they know they will someday regret. But lately I've discovered that the line between what is right and what you might regret someday, is like trying to guess if it'll snow or not in Winnipeg during summer.
It seems to me that our instincts usually guide us to whats right and what we know we shouldnt be doing. Yet this is all based on the assumption that we use our brains and not our hearts. It appears that in many relationships, the mind tends to take the back seat and let the heart do all the thinking. So that only leaves our heart that acts like a puppy on its first walk. So eager to follow its desires and curiositys. But is it right to follow your heart in this day and age? Now days its hard to trust anyone, no matter how close you think they are to you. If a guy says he loves you...its hard to think awwwww..nowdays everyone's thinking....liar....or pffffffffft who else did you say that to...etc. How do we give this huge responsibility to our hearts..to make decisions we wont regret. If we take the plunge to fall in love, I suppose there will always be a ..what if..going on in our mind, but i suppose it all comes down to faith.
If you have pure intentions, I think its wise to take a plunge in whatever your doing, and have faith for the best, that it'll work out. In an age where children kill their parents, and people get killed in playing a ball game, I think faith is needed immensly . We can't let the heart take all the responsibility no matter how intense the emotions are. Balance is required to have a happy life. A compromise between the heart and brain, and always ask yourself before you enjoy yourself in whatever your yearning to do..will it be worth it, or will the guilt reduce you to a soulless being.
Maybe regrets are just a part of life, to give us the oppertunity to reflect on life and who we are and what we've done. Or maybe they are our guidance always showing us what path we're on and which one we ought to be on. Yet at the end of the day, its our choices that determine how many regrets we will have.
It seems to me that our instincts usually guide us to whats right and what we know we shouldnt be doing. Yet this is all based on the assumption that we use our brains and not our hearts. It appears that in many relationships, the mind tends to take the back seat and let the heart do all the thinking. So that only leaves our heart that acts like a puppy on its first walk. So eager to follow its desires and curiositys. But is it right to follow your heart in this day and age? Now days its hard to trust anyone, no matter how close you think they are to you. If a guy says he loves you...its hard to think awwwww..nowdays everyone's thinking....liar....or pffffffffft who else did you say that to...etc. How do we give this huge responsibility to our hearts..to make decisions we wont regret. If we take the plunge to fall in love, I suppose there will always be a ..what if..going on in our mind, but i suppose it all comes down to faith.
If you have pure intentions, I think its wise to take a plunge in whatever your doing, and have faith for the best, that it'll work out. In an age where children kill their parents, and people get killed in playing a ball game, I think faith is needed immensly . We can't let the heart take all the responsibility no matter how intense the emotions are. Balance is required to have a happy life. A compromise between the heart and brain, and always ask yourself before you enjoy yourself in whatever your yearning to do..will it be worth it, or will the guilt reduce you to a soulless being.
Maybe regrets are just a part of life, to give us the oppertunity to reflect on life and who we are and what we've done. Or maybe they are our guidance always showing us what path we're on and which one we ought to be on. Yet at the end of the day, its our choices that determine how many regrets we will have.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Letters to Some...Comfort to Others
I would normally say that most people I've known have shown an egotistic side that doesn't pull at anyone's heartstrings. Yet, it amazes me that when we are asked what our strong points are or what we're best at..its usually filled by a nice long confused silence. Today I realized how many of my friends truly have a gift at writing either beautiful poetry about heartache that makes you want to kick your ex while smiling, or speak of touching stories of their pain.
It seems that writing has healing powers that the medical world does not yet know of. Whether your dying of emotional pain, or scared of the unkown winding road, or feel that one more minute spent in reality might be the end of all that you know, words offer that comforting shoulder. Sometimes we are not lucky enough to be surrounded by loved ones in our time of greatest need, or we are too closed to speak of our fears.
But reading, lets us travel into another realm where those whom we have never met speak to us, and understand us. It can be a novel your reading, or a letter from a friend, or even a journal entry. That is why I've decided to try and write a blog, because maybe it will help someone put a smile on their face, or maybe it will help someone know that we are all in the same boat, trying to help each other head towards a sanctuary.
It seems that writing has healing powers that the medical world does not yet know of. Whether your dying of emotional pain, or scared of the unkown winding road, or feel that one more minute spent in reality might be the end of all that you know, words offer that comforting shoulder. Sometimes we are not lucky enough to be surrounded by loved ones in our time of greatest need, or we are too closed to speak of our fears.
But reading, lets us travel into another realm where those whom we have never met speak to us, and understand us. It can be a novel your reading, or a letter from a friend, or even a journal entry. That is why I've decided to try and write a blog, because maybe it will help someone put a smile on their face, or maybe it will help someone know that we are all in the same boat, trying to help each other head towards a sanctuary.
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